Making a choice

today

I finished another girl drawing today. I’m actually kind of proud of it. But I am resisting sharing it (in its entirety anyway). It’s not amazingly innovative or anything, but I need to teach myself a new habit.

I’m up to 36 images. Most of those who follow me online have seen most of them already. I learned a valuable lesson…if I want my work to actually have value, it might help to not share everything online for free.

I just can’t help it; I thrive off of attention for my work (not personal attention–I actually shirk from that). I have no one to really share my art with in my real life, no fellow artists, so I get my art connections online. So I want to show people what I’ve done, even though if I were habitually able to just produce girl drawings without sharing them online, I could probably have produced 100 individual illustrations in the time from mid-May (when I first started and announced the project) to now.

That’s my real problem, my real hindrance from finishing what I start. I’m plagued by the hunger for instant gratification. I like seeing people ‘like’, share, reblog, and comment on my art. I liked the idea of being a webcomic artist for a while, using ads to support and fund the comic while I posted week after week, but I couldn’t stick with it. And Patreon seemed like a nice idea, but it’s been my experience that people aren’t willing to start paying for something they’re used to getting for free, and I don’t know what to offer.

I feel I must make a choice; either get used to the idea of not sharing the images I produce until the book is ready (and I’m kind of set in my ways so change will be tough), or put it out early and accept the fact that I’m a short-term, instant-gratification type of artist…accept that attention on social media means more to me than possibly having a product with value to sell. Sounds obvious on paper, but the last 17 years have shown me that I’m more comfortable sharing my work and not worrying about sales than trying to be an art hustler or a businessman.

For the record, some have suggested that my goal of 100 girl drawings was a bit too lofty and that I should focus on putting out smaller, cheaper products more quickly. I was just trying to challenge myself to do something harder than I’ve ever done before. I’ve drawn far more than 100 images in my lifetime (well over 1000 exist on my deviantArt page alone) and I’ve completed comics with more than 100 panels total, so 100 versions of my favorite subject matter should have been at least feasible. It still is. I mean, if I finish the 100 girls by May of next year, I would have fulfilled my original goal, but the question is, is it worth it?

Progress Report

The state of the girl book is as follows:

I just finished a new one; I call her Thorny Rose.thorny-rose

As of this writing, I have 35 illustrations. I am seriously considering getting to a nice round number (say, 36 or 48 or another nice-sounding less-than-100 number) and putting out a lesser version of the book.

I need a decent working title for it. I’m pondering format as well, physical, digital or both…probably both since POD sites exist, and I’m sure I’d like to have a few physical copies on hand should I ever decide to vend at a comic convention again.

I want to try other things. Ideas have been flying in and out of my head, such as:

  1.  A small 2D fighting game featuring a few girl designs from the book. I’ve been thinking a few of them would look great in action, such as my Hoop Ninja.
  2. Studying Blender and learning 3D modeling so I can turn a few of them into 3D-printed figurines, or perhaps pay someone to do it.
  3. Getting back into comics. Maaaaybe.

I still have a few ideas yet, and I think my motivation is returning so I might be able to actually turn a few of them into fresh new and quality illustrations.

Thanks for reading and feel free to chime in with any thoughts, ideas, suggestions or rants!

Number 20 – Spirit Summoner

Slowly getting back on track, here’s the 20th girl for my 100 Fantasy Females of Color art book. This one features a frail girl who can use her vast spiritual power to summon an energy manifestation of her idealized self.

shaman girl upload